In the Mind of a Sociopath











{January 5, 2013}   Sociopath’s Most Beloved Trait

What you are about to read is something that is 100% true, and I am proud of this ability.

My trait I love the most about myself is my ability to manipulate others. I have been amazed at what I can get others to do for me, even with the smallest relationship– from giving me money, to committing crimes, to mutilating their own bodies for me. These lies were well thought out, and resembled an intricately woven web. There are several of these webs I have created, some still being created, some very old and forgotten with time. Sometimes, when my webs were being threatened by a particular person, I would have to excommunicate that individual from the cluster of people in the same web (this rarely happened, however, because I would push buttons on the person to entice them to keep quiet– having them do wrong doings for me, use bad things in my past as a large part of the lie so they would morally feel they couldn’t gossip about what I told them without exposing that part of my personal life, etc ). Humans are easily read. I have discovered that, at this time, if a connection is made with a person (even just recently), then a large bomb is thrown at them such as being confided in with traumatic experiences of one’s past (along with some tears and weeping), they will be very adamant about helping you with whatever you need, even if it is completely unrelated. I have learned, though, how to make everything relate to everything. Here is a situation very easily followed through by myself, step by step, from an acquaintance.

1. Find someone that seems trusting of people, kind, and sympathetic. Preferably someone you see only out of your way, but can see every day (in case later you need to abandon them)

2. Introduce yourself. Ask them questions about themselves. Start out asking very basic questions and quickly identify yourself with the person with similar interests. Get them talking though, make them feel comfortable with you and make them like your company. Pretend interested.

3. Once conversation has run out of average questions to ask, start digging. Ask about parental situations, siblings, past situations. Offer up info about your life (real or exaggerated). Find their hot spots; have they had a friend that was suicidal? Had a family member that abused drugs? To get them talking about it, you start the conversation. When they answer about their parents, you reply that you had a hard childhood and ask if they can identify with that. Be sure to listen to the way they talk about these subjects. If they seem sad but soft, that means they might be an enabler which you can use. If they seem hard and angry at the people they talk about, stay clear. It means they most likely will push you away if you try to use those subjects. Keep up with these questions until you find out what they are sensitive to  and will willingly “enable” towards, but do it at a normal-conversation type of flow (which may take several days or weeks).

4. Once you find what they are sensitive to, research it. Find out common symptoms of that behavior (research how those “at risk” of whatever the subject is sensitive to act at the beginning of their troubles) but make it obvious. The person will pick up on it and quickly try to get the truth of “what’s going on” with you. Always be reluctant to give up info in the beginning but not so reluctant that they will give up. If you feel it is taking too long for the person to ask you, then act depressed for a day then come up to them when they are in a group and ask to talk privately. According to your personal skill and the person you are dealing with, you can steer the conversation into several directions- A) you are doing the acts B) your parents are doing the acts C) your boyfriend/girlfriend is doing the act, etc  Make it a big enough deal to you that it becomes personal to them too. Describe some situations that the person has done (the one that you said are doing the acts) that has hurt you, whether these be true, exaggerated, or fake.

5. The best lies are mixed with truth. Always use names that you already know and that have belonged to real people. Chose a person in your past (maybe a long  past childhood friend?) and bring that person to life. This will make it much easier to remember your lies. Make sure right off the bat your subject knows there isn’t any way they could contact the other person (but get them to realize it on their own, don’t say it. Mention they go to a different work place, school, don’t allow their numbers to be given out and you are scared for yourself to give out info, etc.

6. Mention several times at several different occasions alone with the subject (best spread out a few days a part) things that have happened recently (again true or not) and how depressed you are over it. Once this is accomplished, you have established sympathy. But, it isn’t normal sympathy. This sympathy is very deep, they care for you, your situation. They worry about you, think about you when they are alone.

7. Use them as you please. You would be amazed at what they will do for you (even if it hurts themselves).

 

This method is only one of several I use to get new recruits to use and get things out of. It is different if the person has a crush on you or has some outstanding relationship with you already. This method is very basic, with someone you don’t really know, and to get tasks done for you that you need. Money is also freely given from someone used like this, as well as willingness to lie to others (which means that they can be used as a pawn in a different lie to use someone else).

Realize this article is created for information, and yes, is completely normal in a sociopath’s mind. If you think this is “bad” it is because you don’t think like us, and should not be reading this blog if you are going to get upset at the things posted here. Comment questions you have and I will create new posts answering the questions in length.

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{January 2, 2013}   Hello, I am a Sociopath

When you hear the word “sociopath” what do you think of? You probably think of mass murderers, killers, those that live only to destroy.

Well, kick that out of your head.

There are definitions of sociopaths, which can have a variety of meaning. Here are the blunt characteristics:

  • Manipulative and Cunning
    They never recognize the rights of others and see their self-serving behaviors as permissible. They appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering, seeing their victim as merely an instrument to be used. They may dominate and humiliate their victims.
  • Pathological Lying
    Has no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for them to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about their own powers and abilities. Extremely convincing and even able to pass lie detector tests.
  • Shallow Emotions
    When they show what seems to be warmth, joy, love and compassion it is more feigned than experienced and serves an ulterior motive. Outraged by insignificant matters, yet remaining unmoved and cold by what would upset a normal person. Since they are not genuine, neither are their promises.
  • Lack of Realistic Life Plan/Parasitic Lifestyle
    Tends to move around a lot or makes all encompassing promises for the future, poor work ethic but exploits others effectively.
  • Irresponsibility/Unreliability
    Not concerned about wrecking others’ lives and dreams. Oblivious or indifferent to the devastation they cause. Does not accept blame themselves, but blames others, even for acts they obviously committed.
  • Callousness/Lack of Empathy
    Unable to empathize with the pain of their victims, having only contempt for others’ feelings of distress and readily taking advantage of them.

Sounds horrible right? Sounds like whoever this person is, they need to be told how bad they are and try to change them, right? Well, I have these attributes and several others. I have been told by several therapists (after getting caught in my sociopathic plans) that I am a sociopath. I struggled with it for about a day (I knew it was true before I was diagnosed), and then the “guilt” turned into pride. I became proud in the fact I knew how to control people, how to get them to do what I want and that they will do it willingly even when it puts them in pain or danger.

I have done these things since I was little, and the only thing that has changed is my ability to judge people, know what I can use to control them, and how to not get “caught”. I started out not using people, but being the leader of the pack of kids I hung out with.

My group of friends I have controlled since elementary school (me far right)

My group of friends I have controlled since elementary school (me far right)

I always drifted towards the outcasts even though I fit in with most of the kids. I made friends with those that had very little, because I got this anger inside me when I didn’t have complete control of my friends. When a friend of mine, Shannon, started to be uncontrollable, I quickly turned my friends against her.

I used what I knew about her to not only isolate her, but then compel her to come back to me and sit at my pedestal. I methodically planned what I would say to certain friends (based on what I knew would trigger them) and waited until the right times to say them. I know this seems very basic, but this is when I am in 4th grade. I always was the bad influence. My group of friends was always in trouble for things I cooked up, but I was never in that group that went to the office. I knew what was going to happen, and made sure others took the fall and covered my tracks well.

Anyway, as I grew older I became more aware of what the world had to offer and just how far I could get people to twist for me. I have convinced friends (and “friends” is what I am going to call what others call “victims”) to commit harm to either themselves or others, even going as far as to get them to commit felonies for me. When I was 11, there was a boy that was infatuated with me and I knew he would do anything for me. I decided to test this, see how far someone would go for me. I got bored with him after I convinced him (easily) to carve my name into his arm. Even now, while writing this, I can see readers booing, but this is being written for those that are truly interested in the mind of people like me, not for those that are seeking to judge.

This blog is going to follow my life experiences and new challenges I find. I will include stories from my past as well, as I believe they show how deeply rooted these acts are within me.



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